/rant on
So it has been a while a long while since I have written on my own blog. Life has been a bit frustrating and sad lately but I refuse to let it get me down.
It’s like I can’t let it take over my life like it did before and have to realize that this is only temp job. Because I feel that no matter how much time and effort I put into this company I wont advance and I see that now, I understand that now even if I attempt to want to be more apart of it and offer my ideas and services & skills I’ve acquired over the years. I have to be realistic not optimistic, because it’s a big let down if I let it get to me, and it’s frustrating and heart breaking all at the same moment and I can’t let it happen I just cannot let it get to me. I have to expect that my pay isn’t going to increase, or to expect to my long time workmanship that I would seek or be offered out a better opportunity when it arises in the company. Anything I would ask for that I really need over wants would be denied so I just cannot expect it, as already I feel I am only needed because I am technically cheap labor that can be talked or demanded into the work of a higher pay grade for low quality wages. If the management team had a sudden change of heart then that would be unexpected to me. It sucks but hey, Long live RavenPC! Because realistically I need to make this push, as it would also be my only way for retirement and for my future life with a possible family and so on.
They can tell me, inspire me all they want to but in reality I can’t step forward with out an incentive from this company to really push myself to move forward with it. Like this little money means I’m stuck where I am at in life, I can’t afford health insurance, I can’t afford my own place not even a shared rental on top of saving money, I refuse to be in a struggle in life again. I will say I will be soon denying to do more work, and driving around as an outside tech really soon because the ware & tare of my car isn’t being covered even though I might have gas. Just saying anyways, I don’t get paid enough for this extra misc. crap and then I get verbally abused in the process. I am not as patient as I used to be and my tolerance levels is not as tolerant as it used to be.
/rant off.
As the quote goes, I started this gangsta shit, And this is the motherfuckin’ thanks I get?
